T-minus 18 days

“If.”

That was brought up to me again. Rightly so, but I don’t want to hear “if.” I don’t want to entertain the idea that I might fail my Ordeal. At the same time, it is a very real possibility.

That, above all else, is what I fear, I think. Not because it means I’d have to Ordeal again. Not because I won’t wear His collar for another year. Because I would be without His voice for a year. And that… that hurts. That hurts a lot to even think about.

“Then do something about it,” He says. “Let Me in.”

I must try harder. I must do this. Failure is a possibility… but I can’t let it be an option.

About Fala

Fala Redwing is dedicated to Cernunnos as lover, submissive, and slave. A practicing Pagan since 2001 and a member of the BDSM community since 2006, Fala is an eclectic Witch and natural switch. Fala can be contacted at falaredwing@gmail.com.

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