Received an e-mail about the Ordeal – just ordinary organizational stuff – and it has set off my fear something awful this morning. The darkness outside doesn’t help (it’s about ready to storm, methinks: I love storms, but there’s something really foreboding about it right now).
My chest is tight. My forehead is a little damp. I’ve got a lump in my throat. I’m having to concentrate rather hard on breathing.
He’s watching. He’s not saying anything, or comforting, or anything. Just letting me feel. I know I need to do that… uncomfortable at the best of times, and most especially while I’m at my day job. I’ll get through.