If you’ve been reading this blog for the past couple of months, or been on my Facebook page since July, you’ve heard me mention The Conundrum. I’ve mentioned it being scary-making and shake-inducing and how frustrating it’s been to not be able to discuss it with anyone but Kit. (Although if you’ve been reading about my hair color thoughts recently, you’ve probably guessed what it could be.)
At Twilight Covening, I was permitted to finally discuss it. I was allowed to discuss it with a friend on the way home. And while I’m not allowed to talk incessantly about it, I can say more than I have been able to of late, which takes some of the frustration out of me and some of the pressure off of Kit.
So what the hell is this Conundrum? I’ve been through that whole Ordeal thing, so what’s so damned scary about this?
It involves me quitting my boring, unsatisfying, but very very stable office job to turn my attention to my spiritual Work and the business for a minimum of one year.
There are a lot of safeguards that He is allowing so that we can continue to pay our bills. But I must make the attempt within the next 12 months. As He says, I can’t wait until our youngest is out of school (three years away). I can’t wait until the economy improves. I implement my last safeguard on February 2nd, and could be quitting my job as early as June of 2013.